Taken from NoSidebar.
- What makes this year unforgettable?
Several things, mostly because of Jesse. Biggest thing is definitely getting married to him! We also had a road trip in February that I loved (and at the time kind of hated because of lack of sleep), the camping trip we had in May, and him visiting me for the first time this fall. ❤ On a general note, I feel a bit more optimistic about the future of mankind because of the increased focus on the problems we face; that more and more people seem to actually get it and wanting to do something about it.
- What did you enjoy doing this year?
Traveling to the US is a big one. Despite all the problems I see that they have (the politics, health system, white supremacist, racism, etc.) I actually quite miss being there. Obviously since Jesse lives there, but I in general like the people and the atmosphere and the weird sense of freedom I get there. I’ve also enjoyed work a lot more, which is caused by me actually working alongside other people, hence felt a bit more connected to my colleagues.
- What/who is the one thing/person you’re grateful for?
Jesse, without a doubt. I’m pretty sure he knows me better than anyone, including myself, which feels so safe and scary at the same time. I’m not a fan of being vulnerable, and I do have trust issues, but putting my trust in him is easier than it’s been with anyone. I know I can be quite irrational at times, and I have my weird insecurities, but somehow he’s never indicated that he’d give me up. Also he’s super funny, pretty damn smart, extremely cute and hella sexy.
- What’s your biggest win this year?
Getting Jesse to marry me was a pretty big win! Challenging my anxiety has been another one, as it has (god forbid) made me stronger and less stressed about social interactions. Finishing the Reading Challenge is also something I’m very proud of!
- What did you read/watch/listen to that made the most impact this year?
All the news reports regarding climate change and increased plastic in the ocean. It’s like…even the news are bringing it up now, and they do it frequently, so people are actually paying attention to it. Several of the books I’ve read this year have been amazing – more on that later.
- What did you worry about most and how did it turn out?
Heh. Well, I’m quite the worrier. I can worry about absolutely everything, “preferably” at once. But I definitely worried most about my second trip to Jesse this year, in May. I was for sure the customs would look right through me, deny me access to the US, and telling me I couldn’t visit again for several years. They didn’t, though – I got through it as easy as I could have.
- What was your biggest regret and why?
Possibly not initializing the work schedule I’m currently on, sooner. But I try not to regret things, especially when it comes to my own development – see question 10 for elaboration. My standard regret is stressing and worrying too much too fast, though.
- What’s one thing that you changed about yourself?
Nothing really stands out here. I’ve gotten better at certain things; saying no without feeling I have to explain myself, and social interactions are more fun than scary. Another one is that I feel less ashamed of my body, which I give yoga (and Jesse) a lot of credit for!
- What surprised you the most this year?
I’m daily surprised that Donald Trump is still allowed to be president, honestly. On a personal level, I believe I’ve gotten a bit surprised by my own strength. Also I’m often surprised that someone as amazing as Jesse would ever marry me.
- If you could go back to last January 1, what suggestions would you give your past self?
I’m gonna turn a bit metaphysical here and say that I wouldn’t tell myself anything, cause I know I wouldn’t have listened anyways. I evolve in the pace I evolve, and whether I do it faster/better/slower than expected, I still feel that it was already per-determined. It doesn’t mean it’s boring for me; if I get a spur of motivation to do whatever it may be, it’s still new to me and it feels great. Other days I feel no motivation to do anything, and I try not to stress getting through it – I want to feel whatever I feel, when I feel it.
Yes, Jesse is mentioned basically in every question. That’s what happens when you find someone you constantly want to talk about, and have an open blog. But thanks for reading!